want rant

i've been trying to figure out what i really want the past days.

i want peace.
i want us okay.

however, there's a far stronger want that needs to be satisfied. i think.

i want to be wanted and to feel that i am.

and i believe that might need a bit of creativity.
or instinct. like giving it to me without me really trying to tell you.
without asking. or begging.
i want to feel wanted that i won't even think of asking for it.

want me like a child does a cone of ice cream.
not like something you cannot live without but like something that makes you happy.
like the beach to a beach bum. or the sunshine to a morning person.
want me like you want your heart to smile again.


let's go be happy.